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do you believe in astrology? and do you believe in weird happenings if you have extreme emotions, or sometimes i wasnt even emoting it happened like 4 times. fire of the flat below her house someone's mother got heart issue telegram went down someone's father got heart issue weird ass shit and now is the grand cross in the sky with sun pluto mars chiron i can feel so much transforming in me the pain is much gone it comes back and then i process it and its gone and i dont think i like him that much because when i see him posting neutral stuff on ig i am not elated at all. maybe he hurt me too much i just dont trust him at all. because i just think everything is a lie. everything is a lie. i dont believe in him, i dont believe in us anymore. like i am just cynical already. the voice in my head says he probably heard i am hurting and putting on a show to be the good guy. my mum said i should not because he just keeps hurting me and he didnt do anything. which is extremely true. i