20230101
hi its me making my customary start of the year post. as usual, i slept through the fireworks sound. i wanted to say these - hormones. i have hormones. like i get attracted to this guy, it bothers me, i get attracted to next guy. im a very unconfident person, so im ashamed of my own attraction and it makes me anxious. this is my pattern im pretty average looking and not attractive personality, so i dont foresee any reciprocation - theres this youtube channel called therapy in a nutshell. go watch it. its pretty good the episode i watched, she taught about cognitive diffusion it is to separate yourself from your intrusive/disturbing thoughts she mentioned this girl who wrote her recurrent thought on a stone and everytime she chose to believe she would have to hold that heavy stone in her hand other is to label your thoughts. i think it is just to sort them into neat little categories so you can address them in a methodical manner. - random check list clear out my room do some work - fi