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why i keep getting ISFP on MBTI why is this pseudoscience so popular probably beause it describes strength, weakness, values, you can use it to explain away a ton of things why i ended up as a ISFP? i have no desire to influence others, i like beauty, i wish to live an authentic life according to my values, i dislike stress maybe ISFPs are just overgrown children who had a pretty good childhood? i have no interest in people's grownup chat, i am pretty stubborn, quite rude you cannot call me a good listener or a good people reader, it is very far from what i am good at i do like tinkering with stuff i don't create much

i like the sense of accomplishment when i have created i don't like competition, don't feel happy thinking i am better than others i don't like feeling incompetent i like having access to facts and information and understanding them, that makes me feel good knowing that i persist, not sure if it makes me feel good i like tinkering and figuring how something works and maybe even creating something of my own i need to exercise more

its been my wish to push stuff to codesandbox one, for sharing purpose two, local node modules take up too much space managed to iron out the annoying 502 errors in the container sandboxes due to:  npm scripts (need to cd into the client folder to trigger the npm start in the client package json), client dependencies not installed (dependencies is not the the root directory package json, so manual installation is required) for now, the client side is showing, i have not started testing the app yet here's the code sandbox below, its my code-along based on traversy media's mern stack udemy course, i coded it halfway, not done the comments and likes section of the web app for the client end, the backend is done

this just came out. his recent songs are getting better, i'm impressed. metaphors and imagery on point. flying, running barefoot, looking back, blackened nails, tears in sleep, warm bright sunlight, dancing alone, flying free like a bird i relate to this because my life is to be honest, so-so in the friends department and non existent in the romance department.  i don't feel like really sad, or regret, or i need to change it. friends are busy and settled down,  some are less able to provide a listening ear (maybe to them it is childish, immature, or being listened to means you have have to reciprocate so maybe not, they have theirs at home already, they are stressed and have no more bandwidth for anything else).  that is the reality of being an adult. maybe the occasional sympathy and warmth from a colleague or friend or stranger. but that doesn't do it for me. i don't need the superficial. and i feel it is so easy to have values not align one day, or per

mum told me dad's company is considering laying off people since the aviation industry is doing so bad things related to cooking having the kitchen all to yourself when you ask fam to buy groceries and they get you exactly what you asked fam not being picky about food

cooking i made fermented red beancurd chap chye today with remainder portion of the cabbage and carrot chap chye means a mix of usual chopped vegs like : cabbage, carrot, back fungus this dish also add in taupok and tang hoon  thoughts think i am pretty used to cooking and stir-fry cooking - washing, chopping, frying is quite relaxing, takes your mind off things its relaxing when i multitask, though its not really advisable its relaxing because you dont have to worry about food, you know you have a stocked fridge and all you need to do is roll up your sleeves and get cracking future i wanna cook english breakfast fry - eggs, bacon, mushroom, hashbrowns, beans cooking tips cookware - non stick pans (eggs, english breakfast), woks (large volume, i dont know how to work the fire yet to have the wok heat), saucepans (traps scents, needs more oil on the surface), i like wooden spatulas for stirring because they are light and not made of plastic, cookware affec

slow burn.. slowly chipping away at my positivity stupid dreams make me neurotic, don't remind me of what i'd rather sweep under the rug and forget i was happy till you reminded me caused me to ruminate uselessly i just want to get on with life carefree, mindless

nodejs expressjs passportjs oauth2.0 the backend app session, cookies, token dotenv, config, environment variables, secrets, developer keys auth provider, strategy, done function error first callback, callback pattern, async await, try catch, promises robustness, crashes, express app

at first makes you angry and passive aggressive food prep is kinda meditative after a while, the chopping, peeling, rinsing you reach the level of 'edible' is kinda soothing after you don't mind eating your food is way easy to get used to i love my stir fry veggies, omelettes are comforting so is warm fluffy rice