27/06/2021 - feeling much better

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went for vaccine today at the CC. doesnt hurt. slight ache and cool temperature after the rain makes me feel grounded.

was reading this book about a male nurse. not bad. i like reading such stuff they make me feel grounded
https://www.amazon.com/Change-Those-Diapers-Boy-Stories/dp/9814721824
another one was this
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/52692515-there-s-no-such-thing-as-an-easy-job

also rediscovered flipboard
is a feed for reading like google feed, facebook feed

for the singpass endpoint i added in the final graphql woohoo. 
used axios with headers and graphql
https://stackoverflow.com/questions/51630137/post-mutation-to-graphql-with-axios

security is server to server (no browser) and ssl
i delete headers after the route

also found a way to clear git commit history cos i accidentally commited something sensitive with git orphan
https://www.google.com/amp/s/tecadmin.net/delete-commit-history-in-github/%3famp

now its for me to harass the cert authority and the singpass api helpdesk. 

have a mild idea to make my own github demo and docs. cos their content kinda sucks. typical govt websites going round in circles cos they have lost control of data

anyway i feel so much better now i can stop touching the database. i can go full steam next week on the freecycle frontend and singpass frontend and push them out!

shall ignore the vmware/xcode ios for now

the true meaning of self care
when too stressed, cant stop spinning wheels, worrysome thoughts overwhelm ability to think straight
in short, you just cant stop.
need to know to change task and do which activities are the most effective in helping to relax.


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