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 you should be more selfish.. when it comes to thinking about your goals and aspirations.. when i struggle with trying to motivate myself.. things that work imagining being fired from a job telling myself i deserve it, so i get the self image needed to hold down a job and aspirations i have a very fuzzy sense of self i adapt to others i am lazy i escapism

i feel like with whats going on recently.. has healed me.. my emotions all stuck in side.. extreme emotions.. and my masking.. i feel it is better for me not to pretend i am not a nerd..