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i have been on lupron letrozole since 2024. calcium + vitamin d seems to keep my mood stable. for reasons i dont understand.


im a shell of my previous self. you know being bald and also being artificially menopause. i feel robbed. 


even if i dont plan to marry and have kids. i still feel robbed.

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