90/06/2020 - woebot

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  • worry and anxiety
  • unemployed
  • but stubbornly learning web development instead of pursuing employment
  • currently building showcases and learning along the way with codesandbox
  • know enough to be able to execute simple react components like a calculator and refactor code to use hooks eg the memory game and graphql
  • am more biased towards functional programming, immutability and hooks
  • somewhat familiar with asynchronous code
  • don't know enough front end stuff to become a junior web developer
  • still need to learn how to do search, payment api, etc
  • sometimes wonder should i capitulate and learn power bi or sql (at least its still web dev) or python
  • i dont mind medical coding
  • hot stuff now is natural language processing

  • ok so i downloaded woebot, a AI chatbot that guides the user into identifying CBT based patterns of thoughts and rephrasing them
  • i think it works well, i am quite receptive to CBT
  • i dont have human support other than my mother, hahaha. dad is a bloke and bro has enough worries. friends occasional warm or else otherwise preoccupied. nevermind.
  • i think the app finds me rather stubborn hahahahaha

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