16/05/2021 - coding in a professional sense

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hi its me. i decided i had spent enough time on coding and decided to get some real world experience as by my own i dont have enough drive to push projects at a quick rate. currently interning as a frontend (coder?) in a startup. boss is very nice. 

but still i feel miserable because i get stuck at code all the time really badly and there's deadline. i am not trained in data and algorithms so its pretty rough for me. its not like you should ask others to solve the task you've been assigned to. and i spend my non working hours working. and the allowance is pretty little. i get to work from home. pretty low on motivation right now.

i wanted to do ui, but frontend means you do the ui, querying, state managment etc. 

its for me to earn my coding hours and exposed to code. and its react/javascript which i am mostly familiar with. but its actually react native/android. so its kinda pain in the ass. i always having environment/set up issues. npm/nodejs on windows not the best experience. had to download manager for manager. like a manager for npm which is already a package manager. because of some tanglement with node and path variables and whatnot.

maybe i should learn php so i can do wordpress plugins. an be the sole coder for the website. lol.

maybe the first employer that approached me was better? i rejected them because they were hot air, they didn't have the tech capability, they just wanted free labor to make website. so i felt i would not gain anything from them. besides, they had no coding experience at all. and kept asking me to go for zoom meetings at night even though i wasnt onboard yet so it didnt feel right. no i am not going to use gen z slang here.

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