mood

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up close and personal
  • mood and energy affect your motivation and perseverence
  • night rituals affect what time you wake up
  • personal hygiene matters
  • the mindset of wanting to be consistent and not miss out a session
noticing what you prefer
  • not good with discomfort and bored easily
  • need to consistently keep my mood up with good fiction books
  • and also start slow and slowly build
  • try out different methods of habit building and time organisation 
  • introduce variety
noticing what you need
  • authenticity
  • ability to non conform
  • area to hide
  • basically if you treat me like you were to rear a cat, i would be more than happy.

the covid-19 scene
  • social distancing has kicked in - malls and stop units requiring queuing
  • ghost buildings, empty roads
  • depressing news

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