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 reflections october was a fart i wasted october because i didn't understand content strategy the way i wanted to, so down the rabbit hole and shit tons of time researching on content. privately, you should think of work as school. you progress though the grades and gain a framework of skills and knowledge if you want to learn a variety of related skills, maybe you should seek a workplace that will let you grow, instead of wanting to milk you for the existing skills you have what can you learn from that job? will it take too much of your time? thankless job? seek a large company and change departments every 5 years else, seek worklife balance, remote working and learn skills on the internet. welcome to the gig economy.

done with skillshop modules, on track as per my month end target.  took me long enough though. now 3/6 months into the course am left with this. goal is to clear it by this wed 02/12/2020 this was newly added so not part of my original goal that was painful to do ☝ interesting articles i read on the internet today  Four Reasons to Cultivate Patience tertiarycourses sg

 https://www.focustodo.cn/ week of 23 nov https://chrome.google.com/webstore/detail/momentum/laookkfknpbbblfpciffpaejjkokdgca?hl=en https://todoist.com/productivity-methods https://www.loseit.com/ week of 23 nov. missed a day

why am i so sensitive to cold? why is the weather so cold disclosure: i don't really wash my hair these days i wonder is my metabolism low if i feel really cold. if my metabolism is low, am i not having any physical improvements from my daily workout? a day's work spent a whole day yesterday doing 1 thing - figuring out why i am having issues with the logout route, authorisation = no auth in postman, token expiring even though i am logged in. evening routine i guess i got a little obsessed? i skipped the breaks afforded by my pomodoro tracker. mental note that coding may sometimes be heavy work that derails my evening routine. even missed my daily workout. damn. try to do more today. morning routine avoid spending i am just craving in the morning to go somewhere nice and have some expensive food, sighs. in my case the only way to stave off that is to make your own meals at home so you avoid going out. make ahead breakfast  to make up for my over spending, i made breakfast at ho

 its been raining and the weather is so cold i spent more than usual today. on the java and atas food %arabica > hoshino hoshino is too bitter and thin, or at least the one i had at mid day i lost track of time and hogged the %arabica seat.  dbs app reminded me of my bad spending habits and attempts to reel it it - quizzed me on my grab spending, are they human or what - told me i spent too much on food recently what works - cooking your own food, so you dont get food delivery or eat out, both are expensive if you dont have an income - cook your breakfast at home. morning routine. - or maybe make ahead breakfast  idea  alongside dinner so you cook only once a day - cook your dinner at home - have settled into a repeated menu for dinner, its very simple and does not require much planning - we shop once a week to get the groceries, 3x2 packs of veg, 3 fish fillets, and 2 cartons of egg where supply is low, 10 eggs are not enough to last - helps with habit forming. now i cook 3 days a

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help center https://support.google.com/google-ads/thread/59051867?hl=en module - build responsive creative variants https://skillshop.exceedlms.com/student/activity/33818-build-responsive-creative-variants this question  Where to create new priority groups with the dynamic feed Where to view the dynamic feed’s OR/AND rules Where to select new rules and signals for the dynamic feed Where to view the dynamic feeds rules within each priority group in the feed nowhere can you find an answer inside the module.  the help center question was also locked.  correct answer is BCDA.  i did the survey for this module to let them know there is no answer to be found within their content. its so frustrating just like their certification exams e.g. campaign manager. question is just plucked from the sky from some idiot question/education designer who doesn't cross check their content >:(  

 i was angry the whole day because my hair tie was missing. now my hair is clipped by 2 clothes peg. feel so much better. i think i am really hypersensitve in that regard. anyway i bought 5 spares. had only 1 cos its really expensive but durable. don't know where did that little fucker end up >:( people talking to me on my headphone repeatedly causing me to take my earphones off and on and restart my song makes me angry. and when its something illogical that triggers my anger state, it doesn't go down fast. because it is pure irritation and i dont know how to reduce it. probably linked to some kind of underlying anxiety. probably freak out real easy. other kinds might go down the sadness and hurt route so it decreases.

 

badges from lose it! i'm an exercise hound now. been skipping everyday. left with 7 modules of skillshop/coursera for this one. its thursday already  >.<  dont want to go beyond this week much less this month. cleared 6 mods since the start of this month. hurrah 

been too go go go till i'm stifled and stressed. decided to take the easy way and cheat and google the answers so i cleared the bloody modules. tests are stupid anyway. just testing who has better memory for random details. i like the youtube videos though. video + cheatsheet/summary sheet still my favourite way to learn. figured out what to click so the progress get registered and cleared that troublesome module too. maybe if i have the time, i might make some notes. but i really want to code first. databases, api, front end widgets and frameworks, query methods, optimisation, some machine learning, and analytics tag. also figured i need to know some design, and IA, as well as HCI. i loosened and enjoyed myself today. cleared some modules. and also pooped. was having tummy ache yesterday but too backed up to clear. now its cleared, i feel a sense of relief google AMP pages something new. took the easy way out and winging it felt so good. i aim to clear the outstanding by this week

 focus to do extension lose it! app  i have gotten used to exercising everyday for a short while. these days i add a morning workout on top of my late afternoon one somehow, i managed to get an exercise habit references - kaizen (start small), charlies duhigg habit loop (cue reward) i think the reward of a better mood (less frustration, less rumination, thus more focus) and less bloating  self talk goes like have to invest a little everyday so can have a nice next day, gonna feel so much lighter and freer after that workout pomodoro helps me single task and stay on task. i'm guilty of opening distracting tabs and sites. can combine with a site blocker.  but my studies has been slow. the skillshop cert is too hard. i can cheat but i dont want to google the answers. they are asking questions from no where. the study modules that avado referenced were not really tested. and they asking super technical terms. even the help center does not have the answer so i am really curious where ar

working towards goals. upcoming - clear google skillshop and coursera modules, so i am left with avado modules someday - clear those udemy traversy modules. and continue coding. that's all i can say for now.  will still say i am tempted to look for a job but i am still wanting to pursue my job on my own terms. i know i am late and its detrimental. but we are seeing progress here. and then find a junior role and start from there. my dream is to have a routine job that i can just work at typing and data. not require me to keep reaching out to people or have uncertainty.  i cleared 7 pomodoros today using 2 pomodoro apps focus todo (allocate pomodoro by task, you can also plan by project and also, (today, tomorrow, upcoming and someday), i like the timelines)  forest chrome extensions (plant a tree badge, you can plant a real one too).  i'm using whitelist mode.  and both pomodoro apps at the same time. of the 7: 5 - google skilllshop cert 2 - reading books with highlighting i thi

 google slides/insert audio google recorder natural reader - natural sounding voice audacity - record internal audio pinterest - background artistic illustration lucidchart - generate charts + diagrams xshare - for recording screen + audio fun extensions i am using right now android - lose it - calorie counter - extensive food options, badges chrome - blocksite - blocker - contains whitelist pomodoro work mode, no badges chrome - forest - whitelist pomodoro - grow a tree i had  1 serving of exercise today (5 mins of skipping) 3 servings of pomodoro (20+5 mins each) => i completed 1 module of skillshop, basically i copied the site and ctrl f to find the answer, i didn't want to google the answer, rather have nice notes junk food - subway for breakfast (the hashbrown) wonder why my thoughts turn dark whenever i sit down to study. its only quiet when i do cooking cos i have to keep thinking of the next step. i don't like being alone with my thoughts. i feel happy when i chat wi

 project 2 checked. 3 more to go. i dont think we will do well, but i dont really care. just too fatigued.

proud to say i have managed 7/10 days of skipping 5 mins since 29/10/2020. i think its the stress relief and the thought of exercise as a necessary daily investment/payment i have to do for sleep and stop the advance of visceral fat build up. would like to invest some day time to do mat workout to strengthen my shoulder and abs. stress. abating now since its the end of the project cycle. i shall endeavour to stress less and wait till last minute to do the project the next cycle. also less angry now that i am less stress. however, my neck really hurts. sleep is improving, though still poor quality. so far exercise and less caffeine and don't sleep too late. my brain is ok, just a little forgetful. focus on own projects is still poor. too caught up with the digital marketing group project. cannot focus on the google modules because its too boring.