16/11/2020 - burn out

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been too go go go till i'm stifled and stressed. decided to take the easy way and cheat and google the answers so i cleared the bloody modules. tests are stupid anyway. just testing who has better memory for random details. i like the youtube videos though. video + cheatsheet/summary sheet still my favourite way to learn. figured out what to click so the progress get registered and cleared that troublesome module too.

maybe if i have the time, i might make some notes. but i really want to code first. databases, api, front end widgets and frameworks, query methods, optimisation, some machine learning, and analytics tag.

also figured i need to know some design, and IA, as well as HCI.

i loosened and enjoyed myself today. cleared some modules. and also pooped. was having tummy ache yesterday but too backed up to clear. now its cleared, i feel a sense of relief

google AMP pages something new.

took the easy way out and winging it felt so good. i aim to clear the outstanding by this week and if i am optimistic, get the project off my back too and dive fully into coding and finally applying for a job.

pomodoro tracker + siteblocker does work, but i avoid it when i am too overwhelmed and start to get derailed. i just turn it off and do what i can. 

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