25/03/2021 - doesnt seem to work out

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regarding the programme i got into, i think i might quit it because the programme seems to be too hands off.

its a train and place and not a place and train. and the train is for 1 month. definitely not enough to develop tech skills. and the 3rd party provider, well it seems help is distant.

if the programme allow host orgs who dont already have tech capabilities, and claim that it is ok to go in without skills and learn during the programme, it seems quite unrealistic.

and the one i was approached by explicitly said they were not able to train me but also wanted me to later take on roles for their clients which involved time deadlines. which would mean i would be under extreme stress as my skills were raw. and them not understanding technology makes it worse. dealing with clients and deadlines makes it worse. i need some reassurance i would get ample time since i dont get trained. but to be honest, i can train myself. its just i wanted to see what are the requirements like in real life. i wonder how do the employees who are in this field manage client expectations.

anyway the potential employer seemed very predatory. asking me to do accounts role because their accountant leaving and specifying their ambitions to do digital solutions for their clients but unable to coach me. full of hot air. seriously i have no idea what is going on. anyway, i declined their role before the deadline and before a scheduled call with a programme rep today.

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