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 the ideal weekend should be..

you wake up early, do exercise, you go nearby eat, you come back home and meddle about your house for the rest of the day. and end it off with a relaxing swim

OR

you spend some money to pamper yourself. like macarons and tea, 


just try and gently cram in as much exercise and greens or fruit to keep healthy.


i really hope that my brother really manages to seal that deal to secure some income.

also i feel he is probably stingy and controlling and he will treat his mother better than his wife. so would not recommend him as a boyfriend. as a husband i dont know. way too close for comfort. i am quite detached. way to distant for comfort.


i feel less social and chatty because a lot of things i just dont think should be said. how do you make safe small talk that is not toxic. 



FINALLY

i think my crush stopped flirting with the girl and giving her hopes. probably should unfollow his ig. i am not even interested in him, i just dont want my enemy to taste victory. and i am very bitter he made me sad over telegram during my taylor swift concert and my grandma's passing and i was bald. and i hate it that he likes nemesis hence i detest him also.



what is forgiveness? i forgot about that person's quote. feeling empty, peace and quiet.

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