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his ig posts are really soothing.. nature related posts the best. looks like cgtn. i learnt that he likes kfc chicken. but it is better for me that we dont meet ba.. emptiness and peace good for me. i like peace. we can never be together because always got some bitchy young girl wants him. and he doesnt like me. its clear when he did those things. its ok, i like myself well enough. enough of guessing his intentions. just enjoy the ig posts and find humor in it.


the rainy weather good because it gives me relief from the hot flush. bathing also sort of helps.


i craving twg macarons. maybe i should go sengkang. but the sugar high sia.


beta glucan good.


this weekend i feeling damn good because i no need see my enemy's and her stupid boyfriend's faces. hopefully next week also. preferably forever. looking forward to emancipation


loving my own looks right now. i felt ugly for the longest time. i always thought i was ok with my own looks. turns out i just ignored it hoping it would go away, then realise society very looks obsessed. so now i wear contact lens, clip my hair, bathe, put in effort into grooming. this is actually rather important


what should i eat for dinner? cant make up my mind.. i just wolfed down idaten udon.. its a bad idea to eat then swim. cos quite giddy. i didnt really enjoy swimming on my back this time. if not free floatation therapy its very relaxing. also a bunch of fat guys there just swimming without looking very annoying.


im studying byte byte go. good job! nice baby step.

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