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done with google data studio. disliked the click by demo. rather have video with visible mouseover and annotations. the courses are techical, so its always kinda painful to do them. thinking of grabbing my cuppa at jewel % arabica tomorrow. i love the place its so empty and minimalist with white gold and black. the coffee is ok but you get wifi and a nice space so yeah. my skillsfuture training allowance will come in on the 7th. been struggling to balance project work, coding, google square courses. the avado theory courses are ok because its english and i don't mind reading. technical courses kinda groan but some are interesting like google tag manager i am very bad at emotional regulation and a some stress like social anxiety or frustration with learning a difficult module throws me off course  i have been barely cooking. and not exercising. i can only juggle like max 2 things a day. don't know how to increase my productivity level without feeling stifled. never get down to e...

i think the project for avado module 1 is not the worst part of the course right now. the google digital garage is not the worst. so far, it is the google analytics one. the tag manager module was so freaking hard.

watched netflix american horror story season 9. pretty good. but i think watching killings makes me feel empty. so maybe not too often. do enjoy grey's anatomy though. but binge watching always succeeds in de-motivating me. i feel kinda blue after a session. udemy - node api 60/76 now, 16 more to go avado - module 1 - project fleshed out some parts of the 4 questions, feeling like there's more direction self brainstorming on trello did work - can do the random fire away ideas until you get some ok ideas google slides by my team member did work too - refinement of the points google garage -  still at module 1. not yet touched module 2. had pretty low energy today. yesterday also. i don't know if its because the coffee was too strong, i don't have enough fibre, what's causing my lethargy. but i am still hammering away at my 2 projects. i enjoy my time alone and reflection, but like any other human, i will have fears of being lonely once in a while. a very useless tho...

i just realised my online digital marketing course has 31 google modules. fuck. i rushed 22/26 of 1/31 google mod today. feeling empty. numb feeling of not absorbed anything. this means i gonna need to minimum clear 5 mods per week. which is 1 mod per day.  also tried to arrange and add points to the project in trello. trying out trello because you can move cards from 1 list to another in your board. %arabica caffe latte @ jewel changi. was really keyed up today. maybe that's why i am drained and how i zoomed through almost 1 google mode in 1 day with 2 sittings. costed me aorund 7 8 dollars. i prefer hoshino coffee. or even essenso columbian or sumatra microground instant coffee. i sat there, opened my laptop and furiously clicked through the bloody module quizzes. i think i will do that at safra macs next time. its always empty on weekday mornings. only coded remaining 2 eps of section 7 today. its 11 pm and my brain is fried. nowadays i study/code 5 days a week. sat is for house...

spent almost the whole day tracing errors. what happens when you don't test as you code. impatient coder me. its 1045 pm now. i am now 2/3 way through the node api masterclass. wouldn't say that is wholly accurate.  i learnt to check the route path, add console log so i know the controller was called. downside of error handling you get less of a stack trace. i wonder if there's a way to configure expressjs morgan logger so that i can see the stack trace for all the 400 series error. it's actually 500 also, but it's always due to my code. so far i have  done testing and  read through some stuff like the error handler and the expansion of the error class.  vaguely understand mongo methods and statics.  mongo virtuals not so.  mongo aggregate vaguely mongo ref and populate vaguely after this udemy class i need to either do the front end mini projects class  or i need code through the express book. my backend knowledge is vague. still need to know more ab...

hi all happy to say so far so good, been achieving my daily targets. FOR NOW. i will group the tools for my productivity system group 1 do it tomorrow - this app makes you focus only on today and tomorrow. so you know what you cannot clear today will snowball to tomorrow, which is really annoying. set specific and doable tasks like watch ep 5 to 8 of section 3 so you can clear the target. always include a target for exercise . if you have read the power of habits by charles duhigg, exercise is a keystone habit blockers like stay focusd by transfusion media and stayfocused by innoxapps , when i see its blocked, i know i have slacked too much, time to go back to work. exercise use the same song or same playlist. go for the videos with the same song don't go hard, aim for consistency - everyday no missed day warm up my current mix now is a 30 min zumba vid + 5 min skipping (2 plays of drake's in my feelings) i am not sure, but i always have this voice in my head saying i'm f...

screen time makes me unhappy went to watch a movie yesterday. movie - tenet. it was unsatisfying. nothing new. watching people go round in circles. movie - inception, similar but was better. by the way. why is dune due in december so far away. *sets a reminder in Keep* "fear is the mind killer" - wendy rhoades, billions. director directed blade runner 2049, one of the best sets i have seen. quiet movie. slept like shit last night. wonder why. woke up at ?? time today to an empty house and then 1130am made some eggs and bread and aglio olio for lunch. realised we ran out of mushrooms. watched netflix - the social dilemma on screen addiction. the usual shit. nothing new. 1 hour felt like 2 hours. not a fan of dooms day news. 0200pm i'm quite speedy so i cooked and cleaned and dishwashed after the flick ended. watered the plants. reflection on the flick- maybe gen Z has a pretty bad case of phone addiction. my gen z cousin fought with his parents when they tried to control h...

i exercised today. Finally! skipped rope. and my leg is not hurting. must be the different shoes. or the zumba video i fumbled through. no idea how to rock my hips and move my limbs simultaneously. saw some youtube video on the correct way to skip.  goal is to be breathless. sustain breathless exercise for longer periods of time and do more sets. exercise 100% effective in upping my energy so when i do it my day is guaranteed to be productive clear 2 sections of digital marketing course 1/2 section (6 eps) of coding an api thankfully i am not numb yet. maybe i should engage in a bout of cleaning everyday. wonder how i got my ass to move and exercise today. i think i can imagine where my coding will lead to. a day job. probably can coast along. ok, i'm gonna enjoy some book on motivation . see ya!

feeling tired. i am now juggling my personal goal of coding, my 4 hour a week online course (not to mention my team mates are all so passive it takes more time than that to get their concordance on any tiny thing), housework, cooking. i never got into the exercise habit. i think if i were to hold down i job i would let the house fall into squalor and shirk all my responsibilities. think i need to measure my household chore quantitatively log the start time for each chore. log the end time for each chore start time lets me know how often i am distracted. start and end gives me duration so i know how much time i spend each day or week on chores what i do mon - fri daily - water plants, laundry (on the machine, hang up,take down, sunning, distribute), keep dried utensils once - grocery for meals at home gets a papaya and skins, cuts and stores it. i need papaya so everyone also gets to eat it. every other day - cooking (includes prep, cooking,cleaning up, dishes). so we can have fibre. sa...

online teamwork with absolute strangers if very hard different schedules - mastering asynchronous communication getting everyone's vote - very slow and seldom full reply 8 people in a group - nightmare - 8 times as slow unclear requirements - hard to split the work up have to overcome this part so we can move forward have to be very patient since this thing will drag have to arrange a timing where we can do synchronous communication

its almost 9pm. managed to watch and code through section 4 of the node api masterclass udemy course. don't think i want to clear more stuff. but at least i'm kinda on track.  its's still early so you see i'm still in the mood to talk shit here. slowly but surely *tune in girly sobbing noises* didn't do much for today. was feeling pretty tired for some reason. i gave up on cooking dinner. stomach kinda hurts from the sucky diet i have been on - eggs and bread, mushroom spicy aglio olio. spammed on papaya. or maybe it's the cucumber causing the slight bellyache. anyway i have been having UTI on and off and it's no fun. no, i have not been having any fun. i don't know why i'm getting this stuff. spamming vitamin c, water, green tea, cucumber whenever this shit happens. sore throat remedy : cucumber, 金银花tea. or anything else under TCM - clears Summer Heat the massage therapist at joyre told me i had dampness in my womb. said she could feel the bubbles ...