23/09/2020 - google squared

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done with google data studio. disliked the click by demo. rather have video with visible mouseover and annotations. the courses are techical, so its always kinda painful to do them. thinking of grabbing my cuppa at jewel % arabica tomorrow. i love the place its so empty and minimalist with white gold and black. the coffee is ok but you get wifi and a nice space so yeah. my skillsfuture training allowance will come in on the 7th.

been struggling to balance project work, coding, google square courses. the avado theory courses are ok because its english and i don't mind reading. technical courses kinda groan but some are interesting like google tag manager

i am very bad at emotional regulation and a some stress like social anxiety or frustration with learning a difficult module throws me off course 

i have been barely cooking. and not exercising. i can only juggle like max 2 things a day. don't know how to increase my productivity level without feeling stifled.

never get down to exercise because its easy to skip and i dont get the sense that i must tdo it unlike my courses.

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